John A. Simone, Jr. said it best when he said, "When you're in a bad situation, dont worry it'll change. When you're in a good situation, don't worry it'll change." There are so many things that are going on right now in my life, my fiance's life, our life together, my family's lives, our jobs and careers, our schools, our homes, our cities.. Everything seems to be changing- for the good and sometimes for the bad.
Rickey and i are here in cleveland, waiting on his graduation, praying for jobs in LA so we can be closer to our family there.. We are waiting on our wedding, which is 57 days out. My sister is moving to Jackson to start nursing school in June. My OTHER sister is moving to Baton Rouge in May. Baby Benjamin is due in July. Trying to find places for Rickey and I to eventually live in a possible 6 month plan is hard, and getting ideas for jobs and schools for us is a challenge in itself when this is only a plan B. Working a schedule that constantly changes is leaving me exhausted.. So many changes. SO LITTLE TIME. So much to think about and swallow.
Change happens. It's inevitible, i understand that. Sometimes I get so frustrated with situations, it can be so hard to stay positive and focus on the change that will come- whether that be bad OR good.. There are things that I WANT to happen, and things that I PRAY happen.. But seems like more and more the things that I want and desire just aren't happenin.. Then I stop and realize, that there is a bigger plan in store and I just have to keep focused on the main purpose I am here to serve. I feel like that purpose is to love people and give to others more than giving to myself. That purpose is to lead a life that others would see as an example and to follow the faith that I am focused on. What is meant to happen WILL happen, for sure. Rickey and I have some great destinations in store, I know that in my heart. I just have to realize that it's not MY job to plan it out- its MY job to be patient and follow the road that I am supposed to travel down, just as a vessel while im here on this earth. Part of being human, is wanting to be in control of our own lives. What I have learned, is that we arent in control at all... and when we try to control our lives- the curveball is thrown and the changes arise.. It's a play that the Lord uses to prove to us HE'S IN CONTROL.. In the baseball world, we would almost call this play a sacrifice bunt, where we give up our control and what is best for US for a better move ahead..I pray for patience for the changes that are happening, the GREAT changes I am excited about and some of the bad changes that have disappointed me. In due time, it will all reveal itself.. Where Rickey will coach, where he will teach, where I will work, where we will both further our educations, where we will live, etc etc... and those changes will all be great! And the great changes now- having a new nephew, Brittany doing amazing in a field that I am proud of, Candice moving to a new city and starting a life that I KNOW she has always wanted to start, and being able to MARRY the man of my dreams that totally changed my life- all these great changes are exciting and amazing.
In due time.. In due time...
Avec tout mon couer,
Lace
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